Ramblings of a non-smoker (well, almost)
Well, here it is folks - I’ve finally decided to quit smoking. Rather, I’ve finally decided to take a serious attempt at quitting. After almost 10 years of being a chain-smokin freak, I’ve finally decided to take that leap into days of free of cough, chest pains and of course, fresh breath.
Okay, here’s the low-down on how it all started: I started having this chests pains (much like those after a day of heavy smoking) even after just taking one or two sticks in the morning. This was rather worrying and therefore I decided that maybe it was time to give it up – and that was jus the beginning of my troubles.
· note – author may have a tendency to ramble and construct disjointed sentences. Pls forgive him cos he’s like totally on nicotine withdrawal now and cant really think straight
anyway, the decision to quite was made about 2 weeks ago. However, I have yet to actually quit, but I’ve made a decision to like cut down drastically as a “prequel” to the actual quitting. My logic (as stupid as it sounds) is to avoid having to go thru the dreaded nicotine withdrawal crap (ie flu, fallin sick etc). contrary to wat most ppl think, quitting smoking after years of being a career smoker isn’t just as simple as not lighting up. One can actually fall really really ill from nicotine withdrawal. So back to my story, I decided that I didn’t want to go thru all that withdrawal crap, (and I didn’t wanna go thru the hassle of getting those quit-smoking aids cos its just too bloody expensive and too much of a hassle) so I decided that I’ll gradually phase out nicotine fm the body bit by bit, and eventually when my body is ready for it I’ll just cut it out completely. So what happened was over the last 2 wks I’ve been limiting myself to just one stick of Marlboro lights a day (well, there was that one day that I took 2, but it was only once n I felt really awful bout it after that =P ).
Ok, now on to the experience. In a nutshell .. it sucked. I hate not being able to smoke!!!! My chest hurt even more that when I was smoking and I’m in constant agony from the lack of nicotine. It got better after about a week as I found myself not thinking bout smoking anymore and was quite pleased to realize that I didn’t really want to smoke anymore. I was thoroughly please with myself and found myself thinking “now this isn’t that hard”. Boy oh boy, how wrong I was..
Now that I’m well into wk 2, the urge to smoke is back – with a vengeance. Even as I write this I’m dying for a fag – for the glorious smoke to fill my lungs and burn out whatever is in there. *sigh* why issit that everyone knows its bad for u but yet u want to do it .. ever so badly?!
There is a saying about quitting smoking that I heard somewhere before: no one can make u quit but urself .. no one. Well, having said that I want to quit. I really do .. cos I don’t wanna have to go thru the last 2 wks all over again in the future should I fail this time around, so wish me luck.. *sigh*
Well, here it is folks - I’ve finally decided to quit smoking. Rather, I’ve finally decided to take a serious attempt at quitting. After almost 10 years of being a chain-smokin freak, I’ve finally decided to take that leap into days of free of cough, chest pains and of course, fresh breath.
Okay, here’s the low-down on how it all started: I started having this chests pains (much like those after a day of heavy smoking) even after just taking one or two sticks in the morning. This was rather worrying and therefore I decided that maybe it was time to give it up – and that was jus the beginning of my troubles.
· note – author may have a tendency to ramble and construct disjointed sentences. Pls forgive him cos he’s like totally on nicotine withdrawal now and cant really think straight
anyway, the decision to quite was made about 2 weeks ago. However, I have yet to actually quit, but I’ve made a decision to like cut down drastically as a “prequel” to the actual quitting. My logic (as stupid as it sounds) is to avoid having to go thru the dreaded nicotine withdrawal crap (ie flu, fallin sick etc). contrary to wat most ppl think, quitting smoking after years of being a career smoker isn’t just as simple as not lighting up. One can actually fall really really ill from nicotine withdrawal. So back to my story, I decided that I didn’t want to go thru all that withdrawal crap, (and I didn’t wanna go thru the hassle of getting those quit-smoking aids cos its just too bloody expensive and too much of a hassle) so I decided that I’ll gradually phase out nicotine fm the body bit by bit, and eventually when my body is ready for it I’ll just cut it out completely. So what happened was over the last 2 wks I’ve been limiting myself to just one stick of Marlboro lights a day (well, there was that one day that I took 2, but it was only once n I felt really awful bout it after that =P ).
Ok, now on to the experience. In a nutshell .. it sucked. I hate not being able to smoke!!!! My chest hurt even more that when I was smoking and I’m in constant agony from the lack of nicotine. It got better after about a week as I found myself not thinking bout smoking anymore and was quite pleased to realize that I didn’t really want to smoke anymore. I was thoroughly please with myself and found myself thinking “now this isn’t that hard”. Boy oh boy, how wrong I was..
Now that I’m well into wk 2, the urge to smoke is back – with a vengeance. Even as I write this I’m dying for a fag – for the glorious smoke to fill my lungs and burn out whatever is in there. *sigh* why issit that everyone knows its bad for u but yet u want to do it .. ever so badly?!
There is a saying about quitting smoking that I heard somewhere before: no one can make u quit but urself .. no one. Well, having said that I want to quit. I really do .. cos I don’t wanna have to go thru the last 2 wks all over again in the future should I fail this time around, so wish me luck.. *sigh*
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